Even after going away
You’re still left in some part of me.
As silent tears to my eyes
Your memories come to me.
Though living I’m still, without you
There’s love and there’s pain in my heart
I have to only breathe now not exactly live…
And I’m getting used to living like this.
Memories, with me, are so deep
My heart drowns in them.
And all the grief, I have to bear
Only If I could have you near..
You’re with me every second of the night
Near me you are every moment of the day
To forget my own heartbeat is not easy
But I’m getting used to living like this.
Far you may be from me
But I’m still close to you.
After you, there’s no regret in my life,
‘cause you are all I want.
Sometimes I feel like throwing
Everything through the window,
It’s just like trying to outrun
Your own very shadow.
I know it is and will be tough
Who said love was easy.
But I’ll still live for you forever,
And I have got used to living like this.
You meet people; you have to part with them. Life’s like that only.
These were the words said by my dear Anni (Avonie) to Kamala when she was leaving for her country. Though everyone was in deep grief and it was a very soul stirring moment, these words just clung to my mind. Now, when I’m a little better I could ponder over these and as I look at it, it is a very obvious truth. But somehow we are not able to come to terms with it. It is really hard to believe that one day you have to part with anyone you’ve ever met.
So what do you do then? One way would be that you miss them and feel sad, which is actually very easy. The other way could be that put your mind somewhere else and let time fade those memories, slowly.
No one can take one of the two paths. You have a mixed reaction which varies from person to person. Some feel like crying a little longer, some may be able to hide their urge to cry but everyone feels sad. And eventually everyone’s minds are diverted; the time taken varies.
I am feeling the same way. And I also know that at some point of time, I may even forget the vivid details of the beautiful moments we have spent together. But they were the best few days of my life. I know everyone misses everyone because we were like so close to each other. People have fun together, laugh, enjoy, sing and dance together but we along with all that have also cried together. I don’t think I can continue…anymore.
Living with the hope of seeing everyone again.
